velleity in sanity

ugh i love kissing

love it more than giving blowjobs lmfao 

i think i may even like it more than sex…..

well for now. —that i haven’t had sex. 

huh

still don’t know how i feel. but dang, good kisser is good kisser. 

honestly.

ugh fuck this. it’s either TOO MUCH FEELS. or no feels.

hmmmm

1993 huh. that’s sorta weird. if i was 20 though i’d be so into him. technically i am 4 years and 2 months older than him… he seems like a nice nice guy. enough to datey? idk. fwb. sorta weird. 

even after opening matt’s email asking about the ex and the shit around that and then even the other “stupid biker guy”, after i had not been thinking about that at all coz i pretty much just woke up and was checking emailz..

it’s been 30 mins since and now i’m thinking about what to eat!

-grilled cheese on 12 grain? with frenchie’s mustard and ketchup on the side (coz it was so good yesterday :’) )

-egg in the hole! coz i’m always good and up for that!

-hon’s boiled dumplings? because the vinegar and the hoisin sauce and the tobasco mixed with the aroma of the flour mmmmm

-farmer’s carrot muffinz?

-should i even drink a cup of chai??

so many choices . of deliciousness. can’t overdo it though, meeting this englishman looking guy named “barry” : o